yeah!!! im free!~~ exam finished last night and freedom tastes so sweet~ haha

im not gonna say much here cuz.. ive decided.. i'm gonna migrate to xanga.. dont ask why. i just feel like it.

here's the link (for those who care : P):

http://www.xanga.com/lorindam

ok, i'll talk more there, haha.

*wave*


~ lorinda~

man.. i hvnt updated in a LONG time. that's cuz im.. lazy and... yeah..

nothing really that interesting happened lately.. but busy with midterms and stuff and just realized i really SHOULD do my readings.. esp for my humanities and philo classes since finals are coming soon and i hv not done anything since.. beginning of the courses.. FUK

and i really should be studying instead of slacking off like this. ive been so lazy this year.. always leave things till last min.. like literally last min... never been this bad.. and its not just my health that's suffering from it (as i always dont get even sleep anyway) but my marks too.. im getting so low in my classes... i cant stand this.. i know should work harder.. and i know if only i started with my work just even a day earlier, my performace would be a lot better.. but i cant get myself to do it.. FUK

so anywayz.. im feeling so blah... cuz.. my future.. sigh...
still hvnt really decided on what i wanna do after the BA.. do i wanna go to med school or grad school? i should really decide and focus on one and not try both... i dont know.. what i want to do.. WHAT DO I WANT TO DO??

i guess i wanna go to med school (and choose it over grad school) cuz of a few reasons. like a better garuntee of getting a job after studying and a higher paid.. AND almost my whole mom's side's family is in the medical field.. from dentist to nurse to chinese medicine doctor to dental hygenists (i think that's what my aunt is doing..? dotn knwo the job title). so u know, i hv this feeling that i *should* get into the med field too. but.. on the other hand, can i handle all the workload? do i want to spend all the time and money to get the degree? is that really what i WANT and LIKE to do? and more importantly, do i even hv a chance of getting in??

besides the fact that my marks are nto competitive enough and i dotn hv enough extra curriculum. i phoned the science dept today and SIGH. not only my nats course dont count as the 1-yr bio-sci course required to apply for med school, but to take the bio courses, i need fuking gr 12 chem, which i have dropped. i mean, WTF, i took bio and phy, but NOOO, the prerequisites is gr 12 chem, not gr12 bio for a fuking bio course.

SHIET.

why the fuk did i drop chem? cuz i hated it.. cuz i thought it was boring.. but now i fuking need it.. and i regred about not tkaing it... and the told me i can go to night school and take gr12 chem cuz sci students do it all the time. but i mean. i graduated from hs. for 2 fukig years. BLAH. and do i want ot do chem all over again? and even after the bio course, i'll still hv to deal wiht it during med school.. do i REALLY want to get into med school? i really wanna talk to someone about this.. someone who knows what's going on.. someone who can give me some advice on what i should do wiht my life. im so lost and confused. . i need help and some sort of guidence...

times like this make me wish this was just a dream or a video game where i can simply just wake up or press the restart buttom. i remember the last time i thought about this was when i tripped that time in gr 6 and broke my whist and chipped my teeth. (or may be i had wished for that after that accident too, i dont rememebr). i really wished i could do things all over again differently.

IF ONLY.

if only i could go back in time. if only i didnt slack off. if only i took chem. if only i was more careful. life would be so much better IF ONLY these if only's can come true.

i want to be like pie pie. dont hv to worry about school or marks or things. just hv to be cute and hop around and eat and poop. and bear some spinning or "torture" (its not really torture.. just games that i play with her) or what not from me every now and then.

BLAH, i feel so... BLAH and hopeless and useless and i dont wanna continue with what im doing.

!@#$%^&*()
Life fuking sux.


- lorinda -

pie pie is so cute and adorable and distracting... i need to concentrate and finsih my essay!!! but cant stop thinking about pie pie T^T

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~lorinda~

went to Toronto Humane Society today with jeremy and adopted a super cute and adorable and curious and soft and lovable... (u get the idea) BUNNY!!!!!

and her name is Gu Gu Lick Pie (like chocolate pie).. and yes, i dont care if she's grey, her name is still gu gu lick pie =P

now i will hv to try not to let myself get distracted by her and do my school stuff.. and i hv to learn to pick her up.. she keeps running away from me :(

and now.. picture time!!!!!~~~~~










~lorinda~

hvnt updated in a while.. oh well.. not like it matters.. its here to "po chan" anyway. whatever .

so anywayz.. what have i been doing since last time i wrote.. humm..

went clubbing for the 1st time last weekend. it was pretty good, besides the waiting part :)
wanna go again~~
bumped into Sheldon (co-worker at library) and he bought me and my friends a shot.. haha..
then.. we.. "danced"... lol.. oh god.. i CANT dance for shiet.. i needa learn.. sigh.. lol
but still, with my terrible dancing skill (if i hv any), still danced with 2 guys :P haha..

so after that.. what did i do... nothing much... past whole week was nerding week.. cuz of the developmental psyc test i had on friday, which i did... MEH-y.. dont hv much hope on acing it.. as i never do (higher the hope, greater the disappointment).. so if i get B, which is like 70% (so bad).. im happy..
wanted to go clubbing again.. but. . didnt go cuz didnt ask anyone, and had work the next day (which is today)... so.. OH WELL

tried mowing the lawn last saturday. didnt go well. AT ALL.. my backyard is liek a forest back there, literally.. like, beside the grass, there are these weird plants and a tree like thing that's like 4 1/2 feet tall! so anwyaz, i went to the garage, took the mower out. looked insidd eht tank and saw that there was no more gas left. so i just pour some in and ready to go. but then i realised it was leeking.. THE MOWER WAS LEEKING GASOLINE!!!! i was like WTF.. and didnt know what to do.. dindt wanna waste all the gas, and more important, dont wanna set anything on fire.. so i tookt he yellow straw/pump plastic thingy form the gas container and used it to hold the gas was was leeking, and then transfer it back to the red gas container.. i was squarding/ sitting there for almost 1/2 hr cuz the stupid gas was leeking from this fuking stupid hole in this black rubber squeeshy thingy... so stupid... after it was done, i didnt wanna go bakc home and forget about it. the lawn was bugging me.. the grasses were too long.. too long that they dont even stand up.. like... almsot a foot long... o.O.. so i took my weekwracker, and used it to cut grass.. literally... took me anohter hour or 2 to finish the front yard and 1/4 of my backyard. it was insane.. *sigh* so tired afterward..

BLAH
so yeah, i saw 2 movies. corpse bride and serenity. both were pretty good ^^ and i cant wait to watch pirates 2 :D and also memoir of a geisha ^^

speaking of movies, heard from Terence that people were shooitng a movie in dt today.. remaking the 911/twin towers incident.. so like, smoke was everywhere.. and paper flying.. the nyc police and all that.. really looked like there was a big explosion..

anywayz, today i had work.. dead tired.. dont know why.. but wasnt tooo too hard work.. i mean, i got to draw and cut out 36 happy faces~~ and people said they looked cute~ kekeke~~

oh man, i got so much to read.. not only school stuff, but also of interest.. i really want to read those books by oliver sacks (famous neurologist + author).. i have 2 of them wiht me.. but they BIG books.. and i wont hv time to read them cuz of the school stuff.. stupid school.. preventing me from reading interesting things.. grrr... and i had 2 other ones on hold that had arrived too.. read 1/2 of the first chapter of one of them and it was so cool.. :( too bad my card is too messy... wanted to take them out.. goddamnit... sigh..

oh! and no school for me next tuesday and wednesday~~ mwahahahaha.. stupid jewish holidays~~ and also next next thursday as its another jewish thing.. but no tliek that one matters since i normally hv thursdays off anyway...MEH
but still no fun for me as i hv an essay due next next week and a test the week after... whioch i really should start on those readings so i can bs/study... hahahahaha... sigh..

WHATEVER.
im just gonna relax now and hv fun for another day as i worked so hard for the dev psyc test last week (not really =P)


~lorinda~

i love my sensation and perception class :D
not only is the material interesting, my prof is also nice.. he's old and speaks kinda a little slowly.. but not in a bad way.. and he'd make jokes and stuff too! great guy.. and very knowledgable about what he's teaching.. or at least that's what it seems so far.. i mena.. he's like a specialist on the visual systme or soemthing... blah.. w/e.. but man, some people in my calss are jsut dumb... im sorry.. but they ask the stupidest questions every.. cant remember any right now.. but MAN! come on now.. this is a science-bass kinda class.. i would think the dumb people would be filtered out.. but noooo.... *sigh*

anywayz.. naohter funnyt hing about him is that.. he's not really a tech guy.. as he's old.. LOL.. btu like.. id ont know.. u know how old people with the new tech.. lol.. just funny... hahaha.. i still think he's a great guy tho

and man, this class reminds me of physics in gr 11 and 12.. and how i liked it.. lol.. yes, i liked physics... even tho not really for the calculation part... but still... i liked physics! all the eye and optic stuff.. haha.. :D kinda makes me rethink about swtiching to the science stream of psyc instead

cant wait till the next class~~ ^^


~lorinda~

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man, am i bored or what??


~lorinda~

lost my ring in my car... i put it on the dashboard and forgot about it.. then i started driving and it slid down the defogger thingy... the holes near the windshield where air comes out... T^T
dotn really hv any ways of getting it back except to take the hole dashboard apart...

this is so sad... so far i've lost and/or broken at least 10 pairs of earrings, lost and broke my bracelet, broke my necklace, lost the metal ball thing of my bellyring twice (not count the 2 times the piercing "fell off" of my body)...

may be jewellry and i are jsut not meant to be together.... -__-;;


~lorinda~

and i got a day off.. lol
yup, i get a dayoffs on thursdays. hurray for me~ ^^

so yeah, went to school yesterday. first class was alrite... a 1st yr philo class (meaning of life).. so far sounds.. ok.. supposed to be easy.. i HOPE it is.. it was only less than an hr long and its tutorial was canceled.. -_- not that im complaining.. but still.. went ALL the way to york for that 40mins of class then travel ALL the way back??! MAN! so stupid.. but at least i made an appointment wtiht my academic advisor, checked the textbooks prices, and picked up my new contacts.. then went home.. be bored and sat around.. and took a nap.. LOL

so today i had no school (as i mentioned), but i had work from 9am-1pm. its different from the afternoon shifts as i didnt hv to do the "regular shelving". but it really pissed me off. MAN! i *HATE* FAI PORS (err.. sorry for being overgeneralized :P)!!!! FUKING FAT BIATCH!!!! OMG! i cant express this enough.. i dont remember if i had mentioned this before, btu there's this fuking fat biatch at work. omg! she's so fuking annoying! and she fuking biatched at me over nothing! i was sorting out the delivery (holds + returns). this was my first morning working so i didnt really know what to do and all. so when i was sorting out the returns, i put the materials in piles according to where they belong in the back room. then other staff saw what i was doing and told me just put the bins on the cart and push them out to the check-in area and its much easier. i alrdy had quite a bit of library materials piled up, so i thought may be i should just put those things on the correct carts first and then go back to putting the bins on the carts. then when i pushed hte cart out and putting the stuff away, that fuking ass came to me and told me what i should do in a rude way and saying how i was slowing everyone down. obviously i wastn gonna just stand there and take it. so i defended myself, told her that i knew i did it wrong and i was just gonna finsih that sorting and then go back to do the "right way". then she said soemthing about not understanding me and all. WTF! i knew i did it wrong and was jsut trying to fix it. but i didnt wanna argue with her so i jsut left the cart and went to the back room with another one, to put the baskets on the new truck. then not too long later, she told me about the new dvd shouldnt be in that pile and crap cuz they had to be processed or whatever. well, that was exactly why i had it in a DIFFERENT PILE. GEEZ!!!! jsut because i had my own way of sorting things out didnt mean i didnt know what i was doing. i defended myself again and she was stilling bitching at me. then she thought i was dumb or soemthing and rolled her eyes, then she turned around and talked to my supervisor who just walked by. she told her what i did wrong and blah blah blah and told her to tell me crap. WTF. i was right there like a meter away from her, and she spoke so loudly, yet pretending that i couldnt hear her! GEEZ! waht the fuk man. what the hell are u trying to do? so my supervisor, u know, just came to me and "lecture" me. then as soon as that fatass left, she told me just take a deep breathe and forget about it. it wasnt all my fault that the new material was out like that since she didnt explian to me about it. then she helped me with the sorting and tracing of the new stuff that went out onto the floor.

omg! I FUKING HATE HER! I HOPE SHE DIES!!!!! omg. i hvnt been this angry toward a dumb person since liek that other fuking ass at the library who doesnt know shiet of what is she doing and yells and acuses at people for no reason and thinks the laziest page who doesnt do shiet is the best and most hard-working page at agincourt.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM SO FUKING ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUK MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DIUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!

if its not cuz of the money, i wouldnt just flipped her off RIGHT THERE RIGH THAT MOMENT!!!!! and call it a quit!!!!!!!
geezzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah.. after work, i went home.. and was very bored... so i lazyed around... drew for a bit... then ewnt out singing k with joyce, tim, and christ.

went to focus and it was fun ^^ nice place.. but a bit far... oh well... they hv (tiny) broken glasses on the table tho! got a (*tiny little*) cut on my arm.. but it was still fun :)
sang my anger out.. ok.. sang like 1% of my anger out.. oh well.. still helps..

then went to dinner wiht jeremy at congee wong and spent some time together tlaking and stuff... fun night and made my day a lot better ^^

but still, someday, u'll reget for biatching at me, u fuking dumb fat bitch!!!!!!!!!!!
pissing me off like this!!!! u'll be fuking sorry for it!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
DIUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!


~lorinda~

why are u leaving us, summer??
not only is the weather getting cool, school is starting soon too.
school in 2 days!! SAD!
seems like forever ago that i went to school though.

4mths of summer still isnt enough. T^T it's TOO SHORT!!!!!!

so hows my summer been. all the same. its ok. i dont know. honestly, i didnt do much. didnt find any field-related volunteering job. didnt get a 2nd job. didnt make new friends during summer school. didnt get any flipflops. didnt get my belly re-repierced. and didnt go anywhere this holiday. all plans to places FAILED! no montreal, no wasaga beach, no anything!!! GRRR! and no clubbing/raving yet!! i wanna take advantage of my legal power :(

but at least i read books... lol... and took adventages of my benefits at the library.. so far, i owe the library... humm.. $250-$300? something liek that. like a mag, a couple of books, a cd, a video, and a dvd. lol. OH WELL! i'll eventually return them.

and i started a sketchbook. lol. but id been too lazy to draw. haha.

and i really should format my computer too. HUMM.

oh, and i got my teeth fixed and now hv pretty bunny teeth again!~~
and im still in love of my new hairstyle~ though i think the colours faded a little.. they arent as sharp as before anymore >.<

guess my happiest time during the summer was.... my bday party? lol. i think it is. haha.
i mean, i had a lot of fun.. although i/we were running late of everything. oh well. the dinner part was the best~~ too bad people had to leave early :( but it was fun~~~ impaired 3-ppl speed was great!!! haha! and jaymie was so funny~ "can the bottle fit into this cup holder?" *bottle went right through* "oops, nop" hahaha! ur so cute~

n i was proud with the picnic thing. happy that it worked out.. too bad the 2nd one didnt happen.. oh well.. haha

what else i did during the summer..
oh! id been very very lazy. haha. slept in and stuff.. i love lazying around~~ and going to bed at 6-7 in the morning is great~ and even better now nwo that school's starting and my slp schedule is still fuked up~ yay~~

so anywayz, jaymie's leaving ot kingston tmr :( BOOO!!! T^T i'll miss you
but i'll try to come visit u! i'll *TRY*

BB JAYMIE *wave* and also sam and andrew and everyone who are going back to their rez ro whatever.. T^T


~lorinda~